I wish I had more of a faith that rests in the peace God provides, rather than a faith that wishes God would fix things the way that I think would bring me peace.
From Scotty Smith at Heavenward.
“ “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and don’t lean on your own understanding” (Prov. 3:5). “Blessed are those who fear the Lord… They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.” (Psalm 112:1, 7) (Ephesians 1:18)
Heavenly Father, another weekend brings with it dozens of opportunities to trust you with “stuff” we would (I would) rather control. The difference between trusting you from my heart, or having my heart taken over by fear, irritation, anxiety, and anger… well, it’s never been clearer to me.
It’s not a pretty sight, but I am seeing how easily I can replace just trusting you, with trusting you for certain outcomes. It’s the difference between (1) resting in your grace and love, knowing you’re at work as my sovereign, loving Father… VERSUS… (2) vexing in my fear and “control-freak-ness,” anxious for you to do things my way on my schedule.
Abba, I really, really want the first of these two options to mark more of my heart, worship, and life. Leaning on the flimsy, duct-taped, straw-scaffolding of my “own understanding” never bodes well. You know the beginning, middle, and end of all things. My perspective and understanding are riddled with my agenda, druthers, and desires for my life. All of those things aren’t bad; but not all of them are your will for my life.
Whether it’s “bad news” I get — or inconvenient disruptions, irritating changes, or circumstances that “blow up” my much looked-forward-to plans… Father, give me a steadfast, trusting heart. In my heart of hearts, I DO want you more than I want my way. So Very Amen.
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